Beat, Bent and Spent

I read my last post, and I realized I really tried.

I really tried to pull myself together, rearrange my priorities and adjust my focus.

I really did try.

I really put myself out there to open up new opportunities.

I really tried.

But the opportunity closed because "I was too good and valuable to the current organization".

I was dumbfounded.

I realized that I preferred "you are not good enough" compared to "you are too good". Because, at least, then I can try to improve. But, when people say you are already great, what can you do to get out of your current situation?

I wonder what kind of organizational behaviour tool that can help now.

I am not a Natural.

I think I am just Bent.

For now.

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